Well, well, well…. Look who finally decided to face her fears and start a blog! Yep. It’s true. I’ve wanted to start a blog for years. And when I say years, I mean YEEEAAARS (8 to be exact)! Whether it was a thought in the back of my mind or a burning desire at the forefront, it’s definitely something I’ve always wanted to do.
Why did it take me so long, you ask? Good question!
Fear has actually stopped me from doing a lot of things. It has basically been the ongoing theme in the story of my life for the past decade. I’m actually embarrassed at how much I’ve let fear control me in so many ways. I used to be so fearless when I was younger. How could I have let this happen? I didn’t even know It was happening to be honest. I was just going through the motions of life, talking myself out of LITERALLY every idea or dream I had. I used to come up with every excuse in the book to NOT do something. But one day, I really looked at myself (I took a deep dive into the depths of my soul) and I came to the realization that fear has been ruining my life. Literally RUINING. MY. LIFE. Well no more! I decided at the beginning of this year that I was going to be FEARLESS! This was going to be my new theme and I was going to write a new story for myself!
Well guess what…. it wasn’t that easy. I mean, that was January and it’s now August (way to handle that, girl). Needless to say that lots of meditating, reading, writing, soul searching, researching, crying, and doubting myself took place this year. It basically took me 8 months to really face this hindering, life-sucking, paralyzing fear! It has been quite the uphill battle, but nevertheless, here I am. I did it! I started a f$%&ing blog!
Now, don’t get me wrong…. I’m still scared out of my mind. Starting a blog?! Who do I think I am?! There are so many questions that go through my mind:
“What will I even blog about?”
“Will people read it? Like it? Even care?”
“Am I even a good writer?”
“What if I can’t come up with enough content?”
“Will my posts be good?”
“Will people take me serious?”
These are just some of the questions that have stopped me from starting a blog for so long, but I finally came up with an answer to all of these questions…. “WHO CARES!?”
Honestly, I can’t live my life worrying about what other people think. What society thinks. What’s “right”. What’s “good”. What’s “cool”. I’m starting a blog for ME and no one else. I don’t know exactly what it will be about, or how often I will post, and I’m ok with that. I’ll write whatever I feel inspired to write about. Some people will like it. Some people won’t. And that’s ok too. I have a lot to say and a story to tell and hopefully people will want to hear it. If I can be a light for just one person, then it would have all been worth it.
So if you’ve been scared to start a blog, quit your job, travel the world, start your own business, take guitar lessons, or any other desire you might have, I say just do it! Look fear in the face and tell it to F*@$ OFF!
SPOILER ALERT: *FEAR ISN’T REAL!
It’s just your mind making stuff up and getting in your own way! So look at that fear dead in the eye, laugh at it, and do the thing you know your heart has been begging you to do. There is a reason it keeps popping in your head and you can’t stop thinking about it. That’s your soul telling you what it wants. Listen to it! Be FEARLESS! I promise, you won’t regret it.
So, here’s what I know:
- Fear is a lie! Don’t listen to it.
- If you have been wanting to do something for a long time, that is your soul begging you to take the leap. Listen to it.
- Fearlessness is way more attractive than fear. Go be the confident, badass version of yourself that you know you are deep down inside!
Sending you love,